Daughter says elderly man was suicidal
The circumstances surrounding the death of 69-year-old Leroy Grant, whose body was pulled from the Careenage Monday morning, are yet to be officially ascertained, but his daughter is worried he might have taken his own life.
Just last night, Jeannell Cox-Grant said she tried to offer encouragement to her father, who had said he was tired of taking multiple antibiotics for abdominal pain and was ready to give up on life. She urged him not to, despite the issues he was battling and the excruciating physical pain he had recently been experiencing.
As she stood in his Greenfield, St Michael house this morning, she told Barbados TODAY she could not dismiss the thought that the pain had perhaps driven him to “finally kill himself”.
Cox-Grant was the one who identified her father’s body shortly after it was pulled from the Careenage by the Police Marine Unit and the Barbados Coast Guard around 8:30 a.m. The body had been sighted two hours earlier.
An emotional Cox-Grant said her dad had contemplated suicide in the past. She recalled going to his home three months ago, after feeling the urge to stop by, and finding a note on the table which read, “Sorry, I can’t take it anymore”.
She immediately walked through the house and while she saw no sign of her father, she discovered a rope hanging from the roof in one of the bedrooms. Cox-Grant said she left a note of her own, pleading with her father to be strong, and promising to help him get through the problems he was facing.
“The first time when I found the rope he said he walked down by the Careenage to jump off and he didn’t. And then after he saw the note, he hung in there a little longer,” she said.
“I tried to help him, but then he would give up and say nobody ain’t care about he. I would say, ‘alright Dad, you got to hang in there’ and he would say ‘but you don’t know how I feel’. I would say, ‘but I can’t tell you go and kill yourself, and as your daughter it is not easy for me to hear you saying that this is what you want to do’. For a couple of weeks it played on my mind what I saw.”
Cox-Grant said her father eventually promised to “hang in there” and a few days later he appeared in better spirits.
But that was short-lived. She said he soon informed her that his pain was getting worse. Cox-Grant said from then on, she increased communication with her father and urged him to get professional help. According to her, he attempted to go that route but eventually turned down the assistance.
The distraught daughter told Barbados TODAY that Grant called her several times throughout the day Sunday she said and he asked her whether he should take the multiple types of medication he was on and that he was getting tired. He also told her he did not know how much longer he could bear the pain.
“He called back and say he know it is a lot, but nobody don’t understand how he feeling. I say, ‘Dad, I know what it is to feel like giving up but just hang in there,’” Cox-Grant continued, as she recounted her final conversation with her father.
“I believe it was more mental because he lived life not so good before and I think it was riding him. The pain was there, yes, but I’m thinking this end result was him feeling like he don’t need to go on and what is the purpose of his life,” added a tearful Cox-Grant.
Grant, who would have celebrated his 70th birthday next month, retired from Purity Bakeries Limited where he worked most of his life as a general worker.